"Shower of Relief"....

For the past few days the sky was getting cloudy every afternoon but there wasnt any sign of rains...finally it showered today,even though for a very brief period...M sitting infront of my lappy,the room's dark n outside its breezy...my current track changes to "love in december"...feeling heavenly...oh god!its raining again...wish i cud go out n get myself drenched..."dont u worry...i'll be der 4 u"....

Random thoughts...

This post is going to be the result of utter boredom on a lazy afternoon,when i m tired of listening to the same songs everyday,tired of facebook,tired of surfing tv channels,tired of....almost everything...Evn the book i m reading is completely boring...so here I am,stuck up at home n m missing my frnds n hostel badly...how i wish life had a "rewind" button,so that i could go back in tym n njoy myself 2 ma heart's content...hav fun wid my ppl,carry out loooooooong "adda" sessions widout being scolded by mamma,going out wid frnds sans calls from dad every half an hour,talk to ma frnds over fone without any kind f censorship,spending long hours wid my luvd 1,exchanging "sweet nothings",being all close n cuddly n....But the harder truth is things are nt alwz as we lyk dem to be n i've understood dis in the "best" possible way with all the happenings around me...hw much i try to ignore things but few thoughts doesnt seem to leave ma mind at all.. :( :(

Watched 2 muvis 2day...since i havent got much 2 do...1 was twilight n d odr was Shaolin Soccer...though had watchd Twilight earlier bt still felt lyk watching it again..n i did njoy it...n Shaolin Soccer was gud enuf for tympass...n if da muvi is 2 be believed..i.e.Kung-fu can work such wonders i must say I m pretty impressed...
i find myself becoming quite impatient...cant watch a muvi at a stretch...n if its quite long...i completely drop d idea of watching dat muvi...Only god can help me nw out of dis..I think soon enuf i'll be turning insane,if i m not already...n wid all da happenings around,i really cant be blamed..nuthing 2 interest me or at the least,please me,almost stuck up at home all da time,very few frnds 2 talk 2,nt being able to access da net whenever I wish(it tops my list of woes),bla bla bla...given da fact i've 2 spend 2 more mnths lyk dis gives me the creeps...Hope some Messiah gets me out of all these(:P)...

Bored...

Hello ppl...dis post goes out 4 all da ones who thought i's in hibernation...nah..i m not..m very much alive(though not kicking)...its been a few days now dat i m back home but i m already bored n freaked out,completely...moreover nothing's going the way dey shud be n things r getting more depressing day by day...der's nothing much 2 do on the net except swithching from facebook to orkut...n if i can manage 2 find a frnd on gtalk i consider myself quite lucky...n utter laziness seemed 2 bind me that prevented me from blogging earlier..2day sumhow i felt da need to pour out my thoughts so forced myself to write dis out...but ri8 nw sleep seems 2 overcum me...c ya all later...bbye...

8-30 a.m….oh god!!!!!its already time 2 wake up…I get up n drag myself sleepily towards d bathroom…while brushing i remember i’ve already missed out on a part of “Hi kolkata” on radio mirchi…I simply luv 2 wake up 2 Mir’s voice every morning…but den again I m reminded of the fact that I m at home now…so no fm…I miss u Mir…Things are going 2 be different for the next 2 months…I kinda need need to change ma routine to wat i m used 2 since the last 3 years…oh!how I’ll miss evrythn…the shouts as everyone woke up,Ujjayinidi coming to my room sleepily every morning,Riki coming to me to ask wen will i be going for lunch as soon as she wakes up, and as the clock nears 10,ayin n mona pop in with a sweet smile-“Kire khete jabi toh?”,is da common question everyday…n all of us drag ourselves unwillingly(excpt Ayin n Prithadi perhaps) towards the dining hall….those few minutes over da lunch is kinda break 4m studies-discussing all nonsense,pnpc,pulling each other’s leg n most important of all,never forgetting to complain to ‘mashima’ bout the disgusting food…n while coming back from dining hall,pushing each other to bring the newspaper from the office room,n Riki snatching away the t2 from whosoever has the newspaper…if the schedule is busy,ayin wud leave for her rum saying “paper ta pora hoye gele rum e diye jas” else me,mona n ayin wud sit in my rum n shuffle the pages to kno of the happenings arnd us…n if der’s sumthn worth discussing we’ll be debating ovr it…in the meanwhile Riki has mugged up the whole of t2,n if der’s ne feast for the eyes she wud excitedly point it to us n we wud obviously comment over it…nw its tym again to go back to studies…wait !i missed on sum1….our li’l sweetheart…Tani…while we r busy with all these she is peacefully sleeping in her rum…arnd 11 she wud wake up n cum 2 mah rum n say in a groggy voice ”paper ta kothay?”....

After sumtym everybody is silent…immersed in der own world of studies…but once in a while Mona’s voice can be heard calling “Ayin?Ayiiiiin??????”…bt she’s so much immersed in her wrld she seldom answers…Mona wud feign a mock anger n wud call Tani now n both of them wud be calling her names….but again Ayin is completely oblivious….arnd 3pm every1’s gone 2 sleep…n arnd 4-30pm all of us wud be waking n discussing whether 2 go 4 having our tiffin or ordering sumthing frm outside….

Meanwhile I wnt miss out on the shows going on on the various fm channels..whatevr I may be studying…m always glued 2 the Fm..as if it keeps me going….wen I m down the little jokes n chat shows cheers me up…n wen I m happy it amplifies my happiness…The only times I m nt listening to it are wen I m sleeping or in the bathrum or if I m trying to learn a topic…

As the clock strikes 8 its tym 4 all of us to have dinner…oh god!another episode with the food…hw much I hate it…bt der’s no option…

Arnd 11,its tym 4 a break frm studies…mst of the ppl(Ayin excluded) wud gather in ma rum n wud be asking each oder”Ei tor kache ki khabar ache re?” n wud rush for the snacks if ne1 has nethn in her cupboard…most of the tyms our targets r Riki n Ayin….Ayin 4 her pickles n Riki 4 her “thekuas”…And dis is the tym wen Ujjayinidi enters with her signature voice calling ”Prrrrrrrrrreeeeeeeeeeeetha”…..nw she wud be complaining 2 us if nethn didn’t happen to her liking or wud be pulling Riki or Prithadi’s leg if der’s nuthn worthwhile 2 b discussed...as Rahulda calls she wud leave the rum with a sweet smile…slowly evry1 disperses n our ni8 “adda” sesssion cums 2 an end n evey1’s back in der own world…

Anoder day ends lyk dis….And yet anothr begins…same as the previous day…almost lyk a ritual…At tyms it seemed monotonous….But again these little things kept us going…We never got tired of each other n any 1 persn’s absence was strongly felt n if the person was Riki it was stronger evenmore…may be we had difference of opinions but at the end of the day it was “us”,not u or me…A little chapter of my life is over,a chapter on the life in a hostel….but all the ppl close 2 me hv left der impressions in der own little way…n 2day I miss dem all…few of us have a chance to be togeder for the nxt 2 years…but things wudnt be the same again…

Dedicated to all my close ppl in the hostel….

This is one of my favourite poems by Raja,the rj from friends Fm

Samparko
Jokhon duur e thako……. tokhon tumi kache,
Tomar somoy nai ba holo…amar somoy ache..
Jokhon kache thako…tokhon tumi nei,
Durbin e chokh rakhbo ami…tomake dekhtei…
Jokhon tumi jao…tokhon ami asi..
Chokher kone joler fota vasay tomar haasi…
Jokhon tumi aso,tokhon ami bhabi….
Ei toh abar hochhe shuru…duur e jabar daabi…
Jokhon tumi chhile…tokhon amar mone…
Tomar amar durotto tai jonmalo nirjone…
Akhon tumi nei…ei toh ami achi
Akhon tomar spondon pai amar kachhakachhi…
Akhon tomar spondon pai amar….kachakachi....

hi buddy....it's nice to see that you have started your journey....hope you have a safe ride ahead...and I'm really grateful to you that you have asked me to be the pillion...but before we really gather speed,I would like to know who are you??Would you oblige me??Or I will remain a guest of your interest??

Hi frnz....was completely tired of studies.....had nuthin 2 do 2 refresh myself(coz evry1 around me are immersed in their own world of books!!!!!!)....so came up wid d idea of blogging...ri8 now evry1's asleep.....n i m here..."blogging"...trying 2 take myself away 4m dis everyday tensions n rest all da things dat keeps nagging mah brains(read it as exams n those scary books!!)....but sumhow cant do it...again there are signs of tireness...i m feeling real sleepy....so gudni8 2 all of u frnz...though it shud be early morning given the time...adieu till my next post...